Never Ever

I never ever need validation. This is a joke! I am so torn at times. Saying too much in conversations. Not saying enough. Speaking the truth in love. Trying to be congruent in my everyday living.

I want to be known as a woman who spoke the truth in love.
I want to be known as a loving, caring, compassionate person.
I want to be known as a dependable person.
I want to be known as a women of integrity.

I can't go on. Something in me is saying "You can't please everyone and your mission in life can't be to prove yourself worthy." Worthy of someone's praise. I am a born and bred people-pleaser. Actress, Sally Fields, said upon acceptance of a award "They like me, they really like me." A majority of people liked the role she played in a movie. Isn't she so lucky. The human side of me wants validation and people liking me. But as I pause now, the truth comes to me.

Most importantly I want to be known as a child of God. Adopted into the family of God. My adoption came about from my discovery of Jesus. He freely adopted me when I acknowledged Him and Who He is.

I do the best I can this side of heaven. The perfection will be in heaven. As I go about my daily living I ask the Holy Spirit to help me talk and walk. Talk with God's wisdom and walk as Jesus did.

I heard it said once.
I want to see as Jesus sees.
Love as Jesus loved.
Live as Jesus did.

The results of that kind of living will be as Jesus said "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first." I am just not going to please everyone.

Each day I try to remember the validation and approval my Savior has given me. If though I screw up. He deeply knows my heart. As the psalmist said "Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, to lofty for me to attain." (Psalm 139:6 NIV)

I want to be able to say I am never ever going to be a people-pleaser, but I would rather say with I God will do the best I can.