Dazzle

Woodpecker, Sit Still!

Woodpecker
Your head
with your long neck
it is red
you bounce around
making way to be fed
and then you found
the spot to drill
your neck pounds
and you eat your fill.
I try to take your picture
but you don't sit still.

What Have U Held onto For to Long....

Worry of not accomplishing
of not being
doing
seeing
going
liking
caring
sharing
making
creating
liking
loving
choosing
liking
hearing
being
going
rolling
walking
talking
something
anything
anytime
anywhere
anyplace
any space
anyway
any day
any place
any way
being a person
being a friend
being a mom
aunt
wife
caretaker
writer
speaker
lover
tennis player
friend
whatever
whenever
any day
anyway
any place
any time any way
any time.
The Father speaks:
Be you
be a friend of God
be free to be you and like Me
be wise
be funny
be caring
be you
be you who I created you to be
Be funny
Be silly
be whatever
be free to be you
caring
sharing
writing
rambling
whatever
whatever.

New Thought:

Fruit bearing life to be released.
Change your words
Change your world.
Say too much instead of showing.
Wrote a saying, changed the words.

In this piece I wrote be free from the worries of the world
of your life
be free
but then there is the full word freedom
freedom
I want freedom
you can have freedom
Where do you get freedom?
How do you get freedom?
When do you get freedom?
How do you get freedom?
This is the freedom I desire for you to be in a state of existing with Jesus and me the state of just being.
After all I am a human BEING.
I AM A SOJOURNER, TRAVELLER.

WHAT I REALLY WANT TO SAY is...

I know Jesus
He is my personal friend
I want to introduce you to Him
He is friendly
kind
trustworthy
fun-loving
caring
peaceful
gracious
loving
super special
grateful
good
nice
interesting
smart
Do you want to know people like Him?
Do you want to meet Him?
He has been someone I want to be near, to get to know. I have found some in my life to not be like be these things.
I have trouble opening my heart to others because at times I have felt rejected, sad, confused, distracted so I shut myself in and avoid trying to understand who He is and where He came from. At times I let others define who He is and where He came from and they were wrong. When you have been hurt and not sure about what to think of Him it is hard to open your heart.
There is a really good book you can read about Him before you even meet Him face to face. It is a trustworthy book and a good read. This book you have to read it slowly. I can really recommend that after you read the book you will ask Him if you can meet Him. someday and hang out with Him forever. I have met many who after reading this book want to meet Him and be His friend and many become lifetime friends.
I guarantee this will be worth it. You won't regret reading this book. Do you know the feeling when you want to tell someone about someone and you are not given the chance? You feel inside like the match of you two meeting will be so good for you both and you just want it so bad for them both. That is how I feel. So I wrote this down in the hope that this message reaches you and you get to meet Him.
I introduce you now to Jesus!
Read about Him in the bible.
Go for it!

CELEBRATING LIFE

I celebrated putting my mother to rest and then my grandma after that. They are in heaven. I celebrate that they knew Jesus. I celebrate Dr. Mullen's life
he had time for me
he took my phone calls
he was available
he cared
he knew Jesus and I celebrate that!
he had time for people
he was a healer a caretaker
he gave and received
It went both ways.
I celebrate being a mom. I celebrate each one of my children's lives and their hearts.
I celebrate being a wife. Having someone to love and care for. My best friend.

I ITCH FOR....

I itch for
love
hugs
kisses on my cheek
holding hands
friendships that go deep with Jesus and he is at the center.
care
acceptance
recognition that I am someone and valued.
a person of value
I count
I deserve to be in existence
I count I matter
I am valued
I am a child of God
I came to be because of His desire and word.
I do matter
I do count
I am His and He is mine.
I am accepted
I am chosen
I am His saint.

The Father speaks: This is your progression Elaine this is my work. This is your awareness. This is how I get you to be quiet. This quiets you. This helps you to hear from Me. This is my connection with you. (a word on writing)

Kick the bucket (bucket=things in the way of writing)
What bucket do I have to kick?
The Father speaks: Expectations from yourself and from others.

Reflections of my Mother. I Miss my Mom!

The anniversary to my mom's going home to the Lord is June 13, it will be 2 years.
What is it with our subconscious mind? It just dreams about her and grieves at this time.
Things I miss about my mom.
Her smile
Her laugh (simply the best!)
Her forgetfulness and then her honesty in fessing up to forgetfulness.
Her love for shopping.
Her love of news and the world events and movie stars.
Her love for small things like good food. Especially steak, burger king Jr. burgers, sweet tea, diet coke and frozen Twinkies.
The way Her eyes lit up when she smelled flowers. She loved red geraniums, yellow or orange marigolds , lilacs, roses.
The way Her eyes lit up when she saw a baby or small child.
The way she quoted the bible and the zeal she had for Jesus.
Her love gadgets, AS SEEN ON TV. LOL!
Her love to go to lunch, especially, Neiman Marcus. YUM!
Her love for her children and grandkids. It could not be measured.
Her Love for jazz music.
Jesus is so lucky to have my mom near Him. My mom is so blessed to be with HIM.

Reflection of Yesterday and scripture.

Saw my neighbor this morning. When she was down yesterday she was so blessed by God and God did not want her to be down. Not only did we do lunch, an unexpected visit from a friend happened and then her son out of the blue invited her to dinner. She said she took a 2 hour nap yesterday. OM! She was still on a high with delight. What a blessing she was to me.

Something happened to me recently a verse popped in my head and now I have each day recited it and now I am at a point of reading the chapter in the bible before and after. Next I will be doing a word study on some frequent usage of words that stood out to me. This is how it works for me and God.
Scripture for a beloved friend that was dying of cancer came to me after they went home to be with the Lord. I believe that was in Psalm 13. I will look that up later and confirm. Psalm 63 became almost a whole summer once and then a teaching for a women's bible study called Loving God.
The women at the well in John 4 was buzzing in my head summers ago and I just got up every day and the Lord said to me "read it again." That went on for 1 month. I went to Canada during that time and the word became even richer to me. That's what nature does. It quiets your soul, so you can hear from God. The women at the well taught me the power of Jesus connection with women. How he took a frail, scared, hurting women and made her so comfortable that it allowed her to bare her soul be forgiven and then be available to tell others. A great story of redemption.
I guess I am sharing now what profound pieces of scripture God wanted me to learn. The Lord's Prayer was another summer. How beautiful to pray that prayer in the first person. Like:
My Father who is in heaven hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give me today my daily bread. Forgive me my debts as I also have forgiven my debtors. (I make a list of those in my prayer) And lead me not into temptation, but deliver me and my family from the evil one.
Taking the word seriously and personally.

Touched by an Elderly Neighbor

God was on dual duty today bringing my neighbor and I together. Let me explain. In the morning I try as best as I can remember to pray, God use me today and put me where you need me. I pray that I would be sensitive enough to follow the Spirit.
As I was pulling out of the driveway and got to the apron before the street. I looked over and my 93 year old neighbor, Karen, was pulling in the driveway. I feel prompted at times to call her when there is bad weather to check on her or at other times. Today as I gazed over I heard the whisper of God say "go ask her to go to lunch." I hesitated because you see I had my "to do list." Now I quite frequently ask to be used by God and then in the next moment say "but" I have this or that to do and at the end of the day ask "Well God why did you not use me?". So as I address these arguments in my head and make a decisions to stop and obey, I witness a blessing. I got out of my car and approached her she began to chat with me. Within minutes our conversation got distracted by a 3 to 4 inch black butterfly (lined with yellow). It was so noticeable as it fluttered between us and hovered that I stopped and commented on it. "You see I love butterflies" I said. "They are always a reminder from God that I am a new creation in Christ" I said. She then responded "We are new creations." Get this! The butterfly then landed on her and stayed for a good while and then flew away. It was a very distinct moment that could not be ignored. We did go to lunch and I so enjoy Karen's history and stories. She said to me as we were about to part "this really made my day to go to lunch, I was not looking forward to this afternoon because I am losing my friends and have been very sad, thank you so much." (Long story as to why she was losing her friends) She then grabbed me and gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek. She in all the 6 years I have lived here has never hugged and kissed me. As I got back in my car I grabbed my cheek and thought to myself "this was like a kiss from my mom (who is now longer on earth and I miss her so much and the 2 year Anniversary to her death is coming in a week). I cried and as the tears flowed I thanked God for such a sweet visit and for feeling loved. That I felt so loved by God that he figured out a way to show me His concern and love for me today. I know Karen was touched and so was I. God did a dual deal. PTL! (Praise the Lord)

New Beginnings

I am excited to share what is on my heart. A new beginning....