BRAIN FREEZE

Dear Friend:

Just getting out of my neighborhood to the bike trail was a nightmare. I had to get over the railroad tracks to the path. Two freight trains stopped dead caused me to detour to the underpass. The sidewalk had wooden horses on it for repairs. There are so many obstacles I almost turned around to give up. 

I awoke this day with so much doubt about my days ahead. I just covered my head and did not even want to pray. I wanted to give up. Have I reached the end? Have I done all I can? Some days I lose my place and ask “Is God even with me?” I feel all alone. I looked up and mustered a small prayer “Help me.” That prayer turned to praying for my day and others. I think I have just enough energy for a bike ride. Knowing how important exercise is for the mind, I dressed and left.

On the reverse of my 8 mile trek I was getting warm so I shoved my gloves in my pocket. I had been listening to a sermon on “Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he. (Proverbs 29:18).

Through the years I have deeply sought the Lord for his vision for my life. I wanted clarity from Him. I was beginning to believe that the revelation I received in the past was gone. The sermon was energizing me. I don’t have to receive this brain freeze saying I’m washed up! With that in mind my speed increased. I grabbed for my gloves and discovered one to be gone. I stopped and knew that I had to turn back. It was a couple of miles since I shoved them in my pocket. Oh know I have to go back? I just went through the trail that I  hate and struggle with.

With determination I went back seeking that quality glove with all my might. In my head I heard God spoke “You’re going back for the glove, go back over my revelation I have given you, with the same determination. You don’t want to lose the glove. You should not lose me either. Sometimes you have to go back over the hard part of your life. Things are not always easy. You have to work for them. But on my path I bring you joy, strength in the midst. If you follow another plan you lose your joy and you feel as if you’re perishing. I found the glove and continued back over the rough patches.

Funny someone older than me kept passing me. I am not going to let them beat me. God commented on that. “You need not compare yourself with others. Some may look like they are doing better than you. That is not the point. I will give you the time, energy and sometimes you will be ahead. But let me be in control of that.” I laughed harder because a burst of more energy came over me and I actually was flying by that person and continued to be ahead for a while

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Do you seek God deeply enough that you get some revelation for your life? Glad I didn’t let the obstacles stop me from this ride. God is ready to meet you just about anywhere.

PRAYER:  Father in heaven I feel lack of passion and vision in my life. Help! I need to hear from You.